Down in the dumps

Yes, I admit I’ve been down there again. And I've been an ass to the people I should have not. Shutting everyone off or being rude, though it seemed a good way to avoid any more stimuli to my brain then, was not the best solution. Sorry.

Behold the POWER!!!!

Man to man is so unjust, children:
Ya don't know who to trust.
Your worst enemy could be your best friend,
And your best friend your worst enemy.
Some will eat and drink with you,
Then behind them su-su 'pon you.
Only your friend know your secrets,
So only he could reveal it.
And who the cap fit, let them wear it!

- Bob Marley & The Wailers - Who The Cap Fit

Today was one of those days that I wonder why I got up at all. By afternoon I was totally burning brain cells by the million. It all begun with a letter that arrived in the office concerning an ancient incident and no one was there to handle the issue. After spending almost an hour searching for the previous correspondences, of which were mysteriously missing, the next thing a technical issue arose that had to be sorted out (by yours truly – naturally). During all this hullabaloo, I suddenly got an insight that lead me to this conclusion.

HELP!!! I've Been Taken Hostage!

Another rainy week here. So here I am reminiscing on my journey through life. All those 'wrong' turns I've taken, in my relations, my career and my lifestyle. And the glaring conclusion is that I let my condition take me hostage!

I WILL let you down!

Over the last few days I have been playing back a few of the incidents that have happened over the years concerning my relation with people I  came across. Some were (fewer still are) my friends, acquaintances and relatives.

Armed with a better understanding of my condition and how I reacted to situations that presented themselves, I’ve come to that conclusion.

That's something I know. Some may feel I failed them, others may despise me or get mad at me (maybe all of the above). But WHY???

Who Am I?

 Don't take "no" for an answer
There's no telling where we've been
And all I know, is that if you can find me
You may never wanna find me again
'Cause people don't understand

……
People like me.

Alphas Theme Song

At times I guess my life can be defined like a person with multiple personalities but all active at the same time.

 

So our lives are a "Good news, Good news scenario" The good news being we get there eventually. And the other good news being to get there we take the most scenic route you'll ever experience. The downside of all this is of course that most of the people we interact with are not gifted/blessed like us so they usually end up either

• Annoyed or angry - since to them we seem to be ignoring them when they ask us something.
• Confused - when our comments or answers are brief and/or cryptic
• Hurt - since we often don't bother sugar-coating our comments

I really feel the character Kat from Alphas series (Guess it is my best show - until I switch to another), she's this lady who can remember everything she's ever learnt either by reading or watching, but cannot remember any event from more than like a month ago. Things like where she was, who her friends were, what she did and all that.

The reason I bring this up is I always find myself in embarrassing situations where I forget peoples names, or at times where we met. Thus it's like "Umm.... , remind me your name" or my favourite "I know we've met trouble is I can't remember where."

So next time we meet and I ask you again, please understand.



Guess he said it best.
"Your neurons must myelinate at an astounding rate." Dr. Rosen - Alphas


P.S. here is another take on the subject

Newsflash – we DO feel things. Eventually.